A new year..

So it's now the second day of a brand new year. And like every year I have never made myself any new resolutions. I don't know why but I never bother. I guess in that sense I might be losing out a lot because Rasulullah says that a good muslim must better him/herself every day (or something like that I think). Maybe this year I'll try and make some resolutions. For instance to loose weight and get it back down to 50kgs, to become a better wife to Shah, a better daughter and daughter in-law and a better muslimah.

Anyway, I just might be able to get the first resolution done, i.e. to loose weight, because I got the resident fellow position at one of the halls of residence in Uniten. So from now on I'll be living on campus and will make full use of the gym and swimming facilities there. I just need to settle into the apartment and get registered at the sports centre. But apart from exercising I'll also have to cut down on food. Try and eat less rice and eat more healthy food such as vegetables, fruits and yoghurt.

But the other resolutions, those require more effort and determination. I must keep on reminding myself to spend more time with Shah and also other members of my family. And if I can't make time to see my family members then I should at least call them once a month just to say hello and to show that I care and that they are remembered. To Allah, I must make more effort to make sure I am 'khusyuk' while praying and not thinking on what I should do next. And not to delay prayers. Plus I must make more effort to read the Quran at least once a day.

Reflecting on my past year, I feel so ashamed of myself for neglecting to do what I've written above. I don't think I've achieved much this year in terms of being a better muslimah. Other than that 2005 marked the year I got my PhD and the year I started my career. So I guess it will be a year that I'll remember throughout my life. But now that my career and studies are sorted I have to start improving my life spiritually and family wise (if there is such a word/term). I'm hoping this will be the year Shah and I will bring into this world a child of our own. Just maybe....